Photography; An abstract study

Now, after the nocturnal study, and the feline study, the abstract study.

• Reflect: Disconnecting from reality in some way, would help me to be less figurative, less “premier degré”, less obvious, and be able to reconnect with the surrealist universe in a more abstract manner, I believe. While my favourites - like Salvador Dali - and soon-to-be-favourites - like Leonora Carrington, who I will research in London - definitely have realistic aspects to their pieces, they are also so wonderfully disconnected from reality, to be recreating these dream-like states, perhaps that is how I will finally bring my 10 years of Dream Diary to life…?

• Plan: Read up on all of the above, but also try my hand at abstract photography. Everything below was created using only objects that I have at home in Paris.

• Act: There are so many unexpected nooks and crannies when you look beyond reality! I also noticed that even in creating abstract photography, I was creating “patterns”, like basic geometrical forms, from triangular corners in the same angle, to symmetrical square forms, centred circular forms, and so on. Symmetry through asymmetry.

• Observe: Releasing myself from the need to create a “perfect” photo by capturing abstract forms, without any need to respect or recreate the actual object it represents, was very liberating.

In some ways, the following photos could be even better if I played around with the colours, and perhaps moved away from the yellow - obviously lamp-like light. In other ways, it is also nice to show household objects and lights like this… Because I am -12 short sighted, so this is actually what I see when I take my glasses off.

My reality is one huge blur.

My art is often ultra detailed.

Am I that afraid of losing my sight that I would obsessively focus on detail when I can still see?

The irony? My detailed drawing as a child - face pressed up to the paper - was the reason I because super short sighted. That plus reading in the dark and gaming too late at night. It’s a shame, but also half genetic, so I am only half to blame. Still, it would not be nice if I lost my eyesight, as a visual artist.

I am genuinely terrified of that.

Details, sharp vision, and lucidity, are my godsends.

Abstract photography made me realise that I am deeply thankful for what vision I still have.